Hey there! Long time huh?
Picking up the pen after this long sure feels tough, but I have to do it. During this long hiatus I realized one thing, that writing keeps your emotions in check. It helps you measure yourself as a person. It empowers you. I mean, in this oh-so-dynamic world you hold no real power other than your words. So without further ado, let me say my piece and be done with it.
I believe most of you, who are reading this, are standing at the same square and asking yourself the same damn thing as I do these days: where the hell am I supposed to go from here?
Quite a tough one, ain’t it? Scary too, if we are being honest. I mean, that is what we are told from the start right, study well and get a good job. And there you have it, your happily ever after.
Well, we did study well and we will get a job(everyone does, eventually) but nobody seems to be happy. Everyone is caught up in a cycle of hurting and loneliness. Though, we do have learnt how to lie and fake a smile. Teenage does that to everyone.
The saddest part of this is, we don’t ever try to explore our own self. We are too scared to even try. Too scared to discuss our issues, too scared to even admit it, too scared to say no to our cool mates who measure extents of our personalities with how much intoxication our bodies can handle, too scared to tell your own family that you are breaking down, too scared to reach out, too scared to start over.
With being this scared in life, when we realize what went wrong, the damage has already been done. By the time you won’t be scared anymore, you will be too late to do anything about it.
Right now, from where I stand It all looks very bleak to me. The goals and dreams I had as a kid are long gone. There is no excitement towards anything, anymore. I feel alienated on every front. The mainstream targets from here on look almost impossible to me. I have no hopes, this is the rock bottom. I am sure you can relate to it, but there is something assuring about this place, because from here you can only rise. Though, there is no assurance that you will be happy with your life from here onward.
The problem is not that we don’t know what to be in life, the problem is that we never care to ask ourselves who we are. Society, family, friends mould you according to them and they will keep at it till you break or be exactly who they want you to be. Some people accept that, some people compromise but for fuck’s sake I won’t and neither should you. Be brave and make mistakes, own them up and correct them. That is how character is built. If you care for opinions at this young age, dude you are so fucked. Nobody really gives a shit about you. Its about time you did that for yourself.
More power to you, asshole!